China
Today I though about you,
I looked at our picture,
I thought about our time we spent together
I thought about when I had to leave you,
It was like somehow I left some part of me behind.
When I think of walking away from you
Leaving you, it always makes me cry
I wish I had looked at you more,
I wish I had kiss you more,
I wish I had held you more,
Why did the time go so fast?
I wish I told you I loved you more,
I wish I had made love with you one more time.
I wish I had given you the baby you wanted,
If I had given it to you our time apart would not be so long,
Why does it have to be so long?
Why must I wait so long to kiss you,
to look into your eyes
to see you face,
the face I love,
the woman I love?
There was something about you
a spirit, an expression of your face
that I can only see when I am with you,
when we are together in the same room
the same space and time,
to see you breathe,
so see the light on your face,
to smell the fragrance of the woman
to hear the sounds of the words
that come from your lips,
to feel your hair
your body next to mine,
it is starting to fade in my mind.
For a few days I held you in my arms
So much love between us.
Before I can to China I only knew of your love.
When we were together I knew your love,
So certain, so real, so true,
I could see how much you love me then,
So deep, so sincere, so compelling,
Now that we are apart,
it seems like a dream
a beautiful dream,
I don't want to forget this thing
I don't want to forget;
one moment,
one smile,
one laugh
one tear,
one kiss,
one I love you.
I don't want to forget one minute
Of the expression of you face.
to see you alive, in front of me.
They are starting to fade,
These memories of the woman I love,
Every time one small memory leaves me
I feel more alone.
Before I met you
I learned to accept my life,
That I was alone,
But now that I know you
I truly understand just how alone I really am.
Every word that fades every memory that fades
is mourned by many tears, so many tears fall from my eyes,
my face is wet with tears as I write these words,
I never want to forget one second of our time together.
I can still see you sitting in the taxi looking into my eyes,
I can still hear you say to me that you wanted to look at me,
because you could see me in front of you.
Why do the days seem so long now that I know you intimately?
My life feels so empty now that I returned to the USA
It is hard to understand who I was before I met you.
I never understood love
Before I shared love with you.
It is hard to imagine how this thing our love could happen
So far away, so many things had to happen in the world
So the one day we would meet.
So many things must happen so we can meet again,
So we can live together some day,
I am so empty with out you,
Now I understand love
Our love
I am so happy we have true love
Smiling and crying at the same time
Very happy but very lonely,
Like a man sent to prison
For falling in love,
Every day I stay alive
Just to see you again.
My heart will be free when I kiss you again.
I am waiting for you,
Please think of our love,
Remember me.
Paul Li Campisi
